I just got back from Customs house. I room full of Phd's and Doctors, ironic isn't it? that both are Drs. I sat on the same table as a Eye surgeon and a Heart surgeon, two other doctors, two pharmacists, and several other members that help doctrines in respective fields of the health and medical world. I felt slightly under achieving, but alas I still had my youth and health. satire.
I watched a video today as well, a presentation given by an environmentalist who spent 17years in a vowel of silence. Inspirational stuff.
I have decided to begin a journal.
This is day 1
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
11:19pm
Eulogy...
Since the beginning of my memories you have been there and even before. In my mother photos there are photos of you cradling me as a baby and then holding me up with your strong arms as a i slowly grew aware of the function of my feet. I remember spending countless hours with you as I ate my meals, and even sometimes spilling food on you. You never got angry at me, you never shouted at me, you always smiled back at me and supported me no matter what.
You were there with me watching cartoons in the morning and movie at night. You where there when I got my first game console and you sat there with me as I slowly learned how to play.
When I was tired you made me comfortable and let me fall asleep in your embrace.
I saw you everyday of my life. When we moved houses you moved with us but soon after you moved to somewhere else and I didn't see you as often. I still saw you most days, but we interacted less and less. I missed you because no one ever treated me as nice as you did. No one held me as comfortably as you did. No one smiled at me the way you did.
I remember the first time I came home drunk you where there for me. I don't remember how you found me, or how i found you, but in the morning i woke up to see you. You had kept me safe and warm. This happened so many times and every time i had you to lean on. You never let me down, you never gave up on me. You're probably one of my oldest and closest friends and I love you so much. I'll never forget you.
This evening, I came home and something was missing. My white leather couch had been moved out onto the lawn. This week is the week that all the unwanted things get picked up for free by the council and chucked into landfill. My white couch was one of those unwanted item.
You shall never be forgotten, forever in my heart. T.T So many memories.....
Since the beginning of my memories you have been there and even before. In my mother photos there are photos of you cradling me as a baby and then holding me up with your strong arms as a i slowly grew aware of the function of my feet. I remember spending countless hours with you as I ate my meals, and even sometimes spilling food on you. You never got angry at me, you never shouted at me, you always smiled back at me and supported me no matter what.
You were there with me watching cartoons in the morning and movie at night. You where there when I got my first game console and you sat there with me as I slowly learned how to play.
When I was tired you made me comfortable and let me fall asleep in your embrace.
I saw you everyday of my life. When we moved houses you moved with us but soon after you moved to somewhere else and I didn't see you as often. I still saw you most days, but we interacted less and less. I missed you because no one ever treated me as nice as you did. No one held me as comfortably as you did. No one smiled at me the way you did.
I remember the first time I came home drunk you where there for me. I don't remember how you found me, or how i found you, but in the morning i woke up to see you. You had kept me safe and warm. This happened so many times and every time i had you to lean on. You never let me down, you never gave up on me. You're probably one of my oldest and closest friends and I love you so much. I'll never forget you.
This evening, I came home and something was missing. My white leather couch had been moved out onto the lawn. This week is the week that all the unwanted things get picked up for free by the council and chucked into landfill. My white couch was one of those unwanted item.
You shall never be forgotten, forever in my heart. T.T So many memories.....
Monday, March 28, 2011
12:23am
Like is good right now, I'm not even sure why but I think I know and if your close to me I think you'd have some idea why too.
Sometimes when I'm minding my own business; I just want to sing at the top of my voice
Sometimes when I'm looking at the world go past my bus window; I just want to explore the beauty.
Sometimes when I'm walking next to you; I want to hold your hand in mine.
Sometimes when I'm close to you; I want to kiss you tenderly.
Sometimes when I'm lying in bed; you run across my mind and I smile (because i see myself running behind trying to catchup)
Monday, March 14, 2011
12:55am
I had coffee and cake with a wonderful lady today. I went to pick her up and the moment i got to the elevators the doors opened and there she was in all her splendor. PLUS! she smelt like cookies! omfg cookies! so awesome!
She also likes reading about sex. nuff said.
She also likes reading about sex. nuff said.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
1:11am
#1436
i love you more than you'd ever know. I, probably, will never tell you
that i do love you this much but everyday i see you my heart screams out to you.
Something about you makes me want to know you and be with you. When i close my eyes at night, all i ever dream of is being with you.
The reality is knowing that the only way i can hold you and kiss you is in my dreams makes my primative cravings the more unbearable.
You would never understand how much i want to hold you one day and just whisper to you the worlds; i love you. Instead, i just sit here in my solitude and repeat the most heart felt words i could probably say to you; I want to love you.
I want to love you because maybe inside i cant love you.
I want to love you because maybe you wont let me love you.
I want to love you because maybe i'm asking for permission to love you.
i love you ______
i love you more than you'd ever know. I, probably, will never tell you
that i do love you this much but everyday i see you my heart screams out to you.
Something about you makes me want to know you and be with you. When i close my eyes at night, all i ever dream of is being with you.
The reality is knowing that the only way i can hold you and kiss you is in my dreams makes my primative cravings the more unbearable.
You would never understand how much i want to hold you one day and just whisper to you the worlds; i love you. Instead, i just sit here in my solitude and repeat the most heart felt words i could probably say to you; I want to love you.
I want to love you because maybe inside i cant love you.
I want to love you because maybe you wont let me love you.
I want to love you because maybe i'm asking for permission to love you.
i love you ______
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